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So... Radiohead is coming.... Monday, March 5th, 2012.

I am going to attempt to get tickets. Attempt. I tried once before and.. yeah, that didn't work. Those things sell out so fast it's ridiculous.

Oh I've got my "try really hard" face on now.... and this thing is gonna get done! (I hope...) =)

Wow...

I haven't had a really, really good, belly-aching, tears-a-flowin' laugh in quite a while... but this did the trick tonight. Thought I'd share...

Here ya go... don't be scared... it's just a YouTube link...

The vid itself was entertaining... especially the awkward look on the people's faces who were in the room with him. I give the guy props for his range... but what really got me was LibertyBelle7's comment, and I quote:

"0:31 Lyrics: hayhayhayhaayAAH!!! hayAAHohoheyohohoohayhayah,hay­hayAAH!!!HAYAHOhayohohoo..."


LOL!

The New Addition

So our hearts got the better of us... and we un-simplified our lives. Ray was really tired of me yelling and throwing empty beer bottles at him when I was crying over the loss of our Tobes. He made me get up off the couch, trade in my housedress for some real clothes, and we went and got this little guy. This is the picture from when we first brought him home...

He's a Beagle/Basset mix and we named him Oliver. (Ollie for short...) Here's one of him a little more recently... giving me a look when I told him to stop eating a dead leaf...

It's hard not to compare him to Toby... and I feel guilty that I oftentimes do. I got really happy when he started kicking around the food bowl when he's hungry... cause Tobes used to do that. He's got his own personality though, and I think he's going to fit in here with us just wonderfully... =)

Whoa...

So Ray found this... what we think is a dandelion... but it's HUGE! It was in a field of other normal sized (puny compared to this thing) dandelions.

Yeah, that's Ray's hand.

Our question is... is it actually a dandelion or something else? I can't stress again how huge it is!!! Anybody know?

Dwarfing the Honda symbol. 

I think it came to take over our planet and enslave mankind.
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Just looking at some other pictures we took of it.... this was a macro shot...

That's no touch-ups or editing... I bet you believe me now about the world domination thing. =P

Tobes

I didn't feel ready to post about this until today... but I wanted to create a memorial of sorts for our little man. It's been hard to look at pictures... and I'm always expecting him to just come running from around the corner being goofy as usual. I'm grateful to have had the opportunity to make sure that the last words he heard were how much we love him.

Toby

aka Tobes, Tobias, Toblerone, Sweet Thing

April 1, 2005 - April 6, 2011

Rant...

I've been very angry for the past couple of days. I don't even know where to start to try and explain why I've been so angry... but I want to try. I think I need to try.

Reactions this strong start with a stimulus... and we've had a few of those over the past month or so. Ray has gotten an earful of how these events have affected me... as well as anyone else around who happened to be in earshot during my rants. Going through details wouldn't be productive at this point. I feel like all those little events were puzzle pieces that finally came together... to make one big telling image that I'm calling a realization.

I feel stupid. And no, it's not that general "I feel stupid" feeling that I get on a regular basis... this time it's because I know without a doubt that I've been really stupid. I've blinded myself. I've numbed myself. From an early age, you're taught that you have to function in this world. We're not separate from it... we don't belong in it... but we have to make a go of it. I mean, how completely horrible is that?

Before you know it... you're trying your best to meet standards, make deadlines, be who you're expected to be. I feel stupid because these things... these arbitrary standards... what grades I made... what car I bought... if I'm "proficient in various Microsoft applications"... these stupid, pointless things became the means by which I measured my own worth.

If those are things I'm measuring myself by... worthless things... how could I ever see myself as anything valuable?

What I'd really like to know is, when and how did I ever let myself forget that I don't belong? Who convinced me to think that I could ever make my way easy in this world? Cause, whoever it was, I owe them a swift kick in the pants.

I am very thankful for the haven we have. Honestly, I feel like I never accurately identified that haven until very recently. I mistook it for other things. The real haven... is not what can be seen, or touched, or ever taken away. It is wholly independent of others' thoughts or judgements. It's a relationship. A pure, simple, and beautiful friendship. That's the only thing that can keep you sane, provide you with a worthwhile means to recognize your own value, and help you keep in mind that all this... this garbage... is temporary.

On a side note... I decided to write this because I also feel like people, in general, don't talk anymore. They speak... but they don't really talk. Anytime someone does, it's considered an emotional outburst that they are going to "recover" from or something... like they lost their mind for a second.... like they're too open and something is wrong with them. Poo to that. How do we ever expect to form real friendships if we never really tell other people how we actually feel... what we actually think? Why do we keep building these emotional boxes to live and die in?

I also have come to the realization that I sound like every teenager from the 90s... but stereotypes are just another thing this world has created to make us think that what we feel isn't actually what we're feeling, only because someone else has felt it before. That's bunk.

Whew... Now on to the things that matter.

Sonic Love

A list of great songs...

The Black Keys - Psychotic Girl

Gotan Project - Vuelvo Al Sur

I Monster - Daydream In Blue

Daft Punk - End of Line (from the Tron soundtrack) - Hard to find a good version on YouTube =/ Not referring to the demo version that seems to be more readily available.

The Shins - Sea Legs

The Shins - Sleeping Lessons

Wax Tailor - Say Yes (Instrumental)

The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition

The Weepies - Can't Go Back Now